weeee...........

i'm so happy... i got what i wished for... it was a gud sem for me despite the rocky paths during the process... haiii... i hope i continue this... hehe, for the sake of pleasing many people around me... hehe, not just me of course... it's so hot! summer is really here! haha, i wanna go swimming.........

hohummm....

i hope everything will work out fyn...

dedication

... i hope im doing the right thing... im sticking with my career... wish me luck... i need to go abroad fast...

happy

thank god i'm happy... finally... merry christmas to everyone!

Choices

I am now an adult and the hardest partof being an adult is making choices... When I was young, the only choice I had to make was between eating or sleeping... NOW, more complicated issues are being handed to me and definitely they are not in a silver platter.

How to deal: It's not a choice between a career and love coz almost eversince I started entering relationships, I've done a pretty good job handling and balancing both. What's harder? love vs l;ove and career vs career? Is it right oram I just too weird?

Most people will have a hard time balancing love and career, nut me? Nahh...

That's why maybe it's not acceptable for me when I'm being left out alone. I would ask myself, if I can do it, why can't they? Am I not that important for them? It's not acceptable for me but I am trying to understand... (believe me I really am) Ifthere's a will there's a way right? Why can't they give me enough will?

Don't think that when I'm referring to "they" it means I have alot... it just means I've been through the situation a lot of times... And time and time again I end up losing... You know why? Coz as time passes by, I'm becoming more insensitive and the person who couldnt care less.

We're adults now. I am one too. And choices will remain. I just have to choose the path I'm going to take.

I'm still undecided.

The only thing that I'm sure of is that I'm leaving this place with or without someone.

If there's a will there's a way right? And if that person really wants to be with me, then that person will go with me wherever I go.

how to deal

Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret it
How do I cope
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you
It's killing me to know
That your heart hurts with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you
How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you

hey

it's me again... ive been quite busy... i hope evrything will be ok soon... hai... im having a hard time now... i hope this makes me stronger... and happier.

One of these days

One of these days
One of these very ordinary days
Your going to call my name
And I won't be there

After the days
After these very,very many days
Your going to see the light
And I won't be there

And on that day
Some how I'll find the strength to stay away
I won't give in
I will not let myself be taken in
Again oh no my friend

One of these days
Out of the blue you'll start remembering
And I won't care
Cause I won't be there

Oh and on that day
I swear I'll find the strength somehow to stay away
I won't give in
I will not let myself be taken in
Again oh no my friend

Thats what I say
Thats what I tell myself I won't give in
So try it someday and you'll see that I won't be there
No you know,you know I won't be there
One of these,one of these,one of these days
I won't be there

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